Not in my wildest dreams did I ever expect life to turn to this. I thought the more control I have over my own life, the more independent I am the happier I'll be. I feel like I've reached rock bottom. Who knows, maybe it’s my hormones but some days I feel absolutely no emotions. Then there are days when I have too much and want to hit things, cry, or laugh at nothing. Today is a no emotional day. Yesterday I cheated. Didn’t really care. I had a fight. Didn’t care. I just shrugged everything off, and now I’m sitting here alone, perfectly content until my emotions kick in again. It’s very strange.